sick and alive

Sick is the last thing i need to be now. :S

And the thing about being in KK is, once one is sick..everyone else will be too. Livin in a small city like this, it's hard to escape that if the season is here and all the doctors will be happy to get ur dough and companies will be the other way round because, we get to MC :D. Ha ha.

Been really really busy these days physically and mentally. Lots of things to catch up and sort out. Haven't really had the time to actually spend some time caring for myself though..like, geez. BILLS BILLS BILLS! Assignments left and right, mana lagi mau keep up at work. Fuck man, there's never enough time in a day..and even if I have the time..I should be doin' something else. But no, I was doing something else..which relaxes me. (like layaning music..=P big sucker fo that man)

Anyways, hey, it's June.. it's the midyear, and still, I've never felt more alive. It's a journey that I think everyone should go thru at least once in your lifespan. And what's that journey u may ask? Go figurelah. When you go home with nothing but you're feeling content..it's priceless. You definitely can't get that with money or from someone else by depending on them. You can only get it through yourself.

deep shit aye? Emo aye? nah, I just think it's a nice feeling. Shrugs. As simple as that. I wish that when I die, I die with that feeling when I heave out my last breath.

I don't like to worry so much but living in a demanding world gives you no choice but to run the rat race like a horse. kimek. pprrfrfrfrffftttt!!

Owell. I hope I manage to sort alot of things out then I can live life as smooth as a baby's butt. As long as am able to stand, I guess I've not reached my limit. And if I fall, I'll pick up something..no biggie. And if somethings trying to stop me, I'll take that as a challenge and not a red light. I've had better days.

Better had than none at all init?




:)..hmm










Even now, am stealing time to say this to you. Even now, am busy..even when I sleep, am busy.

..but it's funny because I feel alright. Why? I will never know. Or maybe I do but how fine, still remains a mystery.


I'm on a high, I'm on a high
There's nothing more to it
We are the sea and the sky
And the blue that runs through it






And there are some who say there are
So many things I need
So I run or I fight and I crawl or I scream and I bleed
I bleed, I bleed

Well it's a lie, it's a lie-don't you believe it
If you're fine, then you're fine-it's all how you see it
Oh, there will never be no conspiracy of happiness





I'm on a high, on a high
There's nothing more to it
I have the sun, it's a star
Why should I refuse it?






And there are so many reasons I could give you why I should be down
There's not enough money or time and my love
You're not around
Around, around






You're alive, you're alive-what else could you give me
You are fine, you are fine-nothing's worth feeling
Oh, there never will be no conspiracy of happiness

I'm on a high, on a high
You are the sea and the sky








It's a lie, It's a lie don't you believe it '
Cause I've tried and I've tried,
and I can't really see it Yeah,
I'm trapped inside my conspiracy of happiness





said I was yours, you were mine
but I didn't really mean it
and I lied and I lied
and I wish you hadn't seen it 'cause
I'm trapped inside my conspiracy of happiness
I'm on a high, on a high, there's nothing more to it, yeah.