I'm throwing in my last card and hope that this will win me a ticket to some meaning to life.
A leap of Faith. With millions of hope and prayers of mercy from the One above.
If the last card eventually turns out to be one ticket to hell, then.. I guess I have no choice but to head to my last resort.
I want mom to be happy.
I want everyone to be happy.
I want to make a difference.
I want us all to be fine.
Sincerity. Is hard to find. I've met alot of people in sheeps skin that would say anything but do not walk the talk. Apparently, some are those I call friends or even, family. Not blood family though.. coz we're that tight, I'd do anything to help if I could. Seeing one fall is not an easy thing. But when seeing yourself fall, and they let you fall, is heartbreaking deep inside, silently goes unheard.
So how do we tally this?
Fear is there to protect us. Doubt is there because it's a dog eats dog world man. Forgiveness is the sweetest revenge but it takes a whole lot of courage to actually forgive and let go.
I'm under a big risk now at this minute but all that is in my head is the word Fuck it
At least in future, when I think back, I'd say that I've dared myself to move. I've dared to cross the line and I did it. Knowing that I might be a fool but at least I took a step. Shrugs.
As long as I know am being really true and sincere, I am glad and satisfied when I die. I wanna die happy. Who wants to die with a frown and a million wrinkles on their forehead because of too much worries and leave your kids suffering.
Screw ye people who delight in other peoples suffering (unless they really really deserve it..like rapists n shit).
Come on, we're all grown up for pete's sake to tell what's good and what's bad. Dare to do, dare to face the consequences.
So come get me. I dare you to move.
heh... think Texas hold 'em Poker and Chess.
;) ...all in! check mate!
